As I sit and look out the window I am grateful for my life. A few years ago I wouldn’t have been able to say that, but I can say that today and it brings me a sense of peace. I have finally found my place in this world through the process of recovery. I say “process” because recovery is ongoing and anyone who doesn’t think it is isn’t going through recovery they are just going through the motions; you will never wake up and be cured. You actually have to put in the work for your life to be different. I know it’s a lot easier said than done, but is it really? When I was an addict I might have agreed, but now that I am a recovering addict, I realize it’s really not that hard once the change has been implemented. If you want things to be different you have to grow which comes from change. You have to really want it, you have to work to improve your health and wellness, and you must have an open mind and be willing to try new things to sustain this life that you want.
When you’ve hit rock bottom you’ll know. Everything will be shattered to pieces and you will seek out help in some form. Now, everyone’s rock bottom is different because everyone’s poison is different, but nonetheless it’s all still rock bottom. Only you can decide when your rock bottom has been enough. Sadly, and I’m sure it would be easier, but no one else can decide when you’re ready to change your life. For some, it takes many of rock bottoms before a change happens. This was me. It took everything from losing my family, my home, and just flat-out losing myself before I realized I was at my rock bottom. Truthfully, I didn’t even realize I had a problem. I had lived a certain way for so long that it just became my normal, but it actually wasn’t even remotely close to being normal. You have to truly want recovery or it will constantly evade you. Recovery takes work, but if you truly want it I will be the first to tell you it is worth every bit of all that it is. You may not like the changes at first, but start small. Improving your health could be a start.
Improving the state of your health and wellness is very important during recovery. By that I mean mind, body, and spirit. You have to go through and renew and restore them because they are neglected during addiction. Now that’s not saying you have to become some health nut, but I do suggest meditation and exercise. Meditation and exercise are both great change agents to integrate into your life. Try carving out 10 minutes a day for meditation and maybe 20 minutes for exercise. Doing these two things will most likely bring you some type of mental peace, hopefully. It will also help with becoming more physically active and living a new lifestyle. Another thing you can do for your mental state is to journal. Getting your negative feelings and fears out of your head will help tremendously. If you’re going to recover in a healthy way it’s important to look at a new life with a positive outlook.
During recovery, you have to change all of your habits and make new healthy ones throughout this process. I know you’ve heard it, people, places, and things. Well, it’s true. Those things have too, and I mean have to change in order to be successful in recovery. If you stay around the same type of environment and people you are bound to relapse at some point. Now, that’s not saying go and isolate yourself because that’s actually not good either, but you need to have some boundaries set in place. Get out there and explore the world. Do all the things that you have been missing out on because of your “poison” blinders. Get involved in your community, find a support group, find and explore some new hobbies, or use this time to truly find out who you are. Just whatever you do don’t isolate yourself because you have to change some things and people in your life. Giving up old habits will be one of the best things that has ever happened to you in terms of recovery.
Recovery isn’t the end all be all. It can open doors that didn’t even exist when you were using. You can still have a life, matter of fact you can have an awesome life. It has been the best gift God has ever given me because now I know how to be grateful, humble, and appreciative. I’m thankful I took the chance that was given to me, even though it took me many years and many chances, I still eventually took it. I’m still tested, but my willpower to stay true to myself overrides any test that is thrown my way. You can always reach out for help if you need too. There’s no reason to feel ashamed, remember, you are worth it. What works for some won’t work for everyone, but that’s okay. There are many roads that can be taken, but the destination is always the same. Recovery.
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